Looking Back

Here I'm now,

Looking back at life..

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when I didn't know the difference between

good or evil; truth or lie,

without a care in the world,

smiling at everyone, whoever passed by..

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I played with sand, made my castle,

and cried when somebody broke it,

and someone was there to console me,

always motivating me to build the castle again..

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Here I'm now,

Looking back at life..

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when a small candy was the biggest gift,

and a toy was like a best thing..

and the fights with friends lasted for five minutes,

what is ego? I didn't know..

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When ambitions in life changed every second,

from doctor, to astronaut and engineer.

and When I didn't need a reason to laugh,

One smile solved every problem.

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Today things are the same, but i've changed,

I don't laugh without a reason,

Nor do i have multiple ambitions,

I no more make castles, nor long for candies.

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But I still have the power,

The power to love unconditionally,

and live the life that of a kid,

and I've the power to rebuild my castle,

the sand is the same, the motivation is still there..

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Here I'm,

Looking forward to my life...

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Dreams

Sometimes I glide down the hills..

Sometimes I balance on the plane wings..

Sometimes I am at heights…

Sometimes walking alone in the dark nights..

Sometimes they make you oversleep..

While Sometimes they run you out of sleep..

Maybe gloomy, maybe enigmatic they are!

Some fresh, some repetition they are!

Dreams! Dreams! Dreams!

What do they tell us ?

Is there a message for us ?

Or just a fantasy to hook us !

A game of our brain, Or the fear of our mind ?

Oh this quest! My mind undergoes the grill..

Without looking for , I think, I should just enjoy the thrill!

Darkness before the Light

It's been ages.. ages.. since I have written anything. Life has been so overwhelming that all my senses just shutdown for sometime. The last one month has been one THE best i've had.. The months before that were the darkest and the gloomiest. It resonates the feeling of darkness before the light. I was not committed to anything but one thing that always gets my full attention and kept me going are books. All those days of being lost in the imaginary world that the books engulfed the reader. Threading through an unknown land, running across the world to solve a mystery, the feelings of a lover. Totally lost to the world. A passion which i thought was dampened was given a spark again and to those books i owe my sanity.

Then suddenly a month ago i was given another chance. A new life, a new place and new people and i'm absolutely loving it. I'm a different person now, probably a better person. I had always decided to let go but kept a plan B, a life-raft, something to cling on and maybe that was my problem. This time as I had nothing to lose and everything to gain and I just let go. And what an experience. ITS JUST AMAZING. I feel so light inside. Nothing affects me these days and i think i've found my smile back. No more falsettos, no more fake smiles and definitely no more a brooding frame of mind. My calm is permanent. Love, joy and peace are my new keywords. I have realised the meaning of grace and am basking in it. :)

All i can say is that the year 2010 was not that good to me. But I'm still here. :) A bit wiser, a bit stronger and lot more happier :)
(this post was written on 2010 2010)